Another Ordinary Day

I haven't written in a while, blog. I'm sorry. I haven't accomplished anything too terribly noteworthy so don't feel too out of the loop.

I've been ousted from the Radio Station... the wonderful and great Sam Brown has managed to muscle me out... I dont know what that's supposed to do to me except give me less of a work load, in that case I thank you, and I feel like quoting Dumbledore is appropriate "I will only truly have left this school when none here are loyal to me... Help will always be given at Hogwarts to those who ask for it.". I'll get off my soapbox, but before I do... I hope you feel great about yourself... You haven't even finished college yet, le sigh.

Anyway... I am so glad I went to CareerFest yesterday at Shepherd. I spoke with the Immigration and Customs representative for about 30 minutes, which seems to be a promising thing. I also stopped by the FBI and Park Service table so, maybe, just maybe I can somehow wiggle my way into the Gov't and then I can end up where I'd like to be. The idea of Special Agent would be awesome, just the way the guy was talking totally seemed like something I've wanted to do/could do. We'll see, it's wherever God takes me.

Speaking of God, I've been going to Mass twice a week since Lent started, minus this wednesday I was at dinner with Rachael, Freddie, and Gabe... I could've really used some Jesus last night but overall it's been good. So much good had come from the last month of really praying. Prayer does really make all the difference. I'm alot better about this whole Gabe stuff, or lack thereof. I am more at peace, but I am still a mess deep down inside. I've told myself that it's what God wants above all else but the element of freewill has it's ups and downs. I think in the end that I just wish to have a second chance, it doesnt have to be right now, I just think that I'd like to try it again down the road, mostly because I just want to be able to show him my good side? But, again, it's in God's hands. All I can ask for is that we be friends.

I'm going to banquet in April, Rob, is going to be my "safe" date, I guess you can't get any safer than a cop being your date, haha. He's got a gf but he's still one of my guy friends. I am kind of dreading the month of April, I'll get over it though. What doesnt kill you only makes you stronger.

I'm glad I have inspired many lives, I'm touched that what I write has had some kind of effect on one person's life. I hope I can continue to inspire.

God is Love - John 4:8