Man oh man, so mom sold the house and we're moving by the end of August. She is going to California and I am going to Virignia Beach. I am going to be living with Joanna temporarily until I get settled with a job and find a place of my own. Eek, scary but awesome. I am quitting my job at the bank on July 23rd and I am not looking back! It is time to move on and find something else to do. I will be looking for employment at the end of July. I am going for a quick visit for a few days and then I'll be back to clean and pack and get mom from the airport. Everyone keeps asking how I'm coping and I feel like I'm doing just fine. If I was moving to California I'd feel like I'd be more of a mess. I just dont feel like I belong in California, atleast not now anyway.
Few of the reasons why I'm leaving. I am getting away so I can find myself. I am moving to a new place for a fresh start. I do not want to be followed or found, per say. I am sick and tired of feeling like I'm a failure at certain things in life. I am ready for a change. I am looking for something else beside mountains and small town country lifestyle. I want to be challenged. I am open for new adventures. I am hoping that I can finally let go of some things that still haunt me from my past. And, because when the hell else in life am I going to get a chance to just move to the beach? Exactly. Good enough, I say.
Other than that, life is good. I am happy.
6.30.2010
6.20.2010
Happy Birthday West Virginia
Hey Blog,
I know I haven't written a proper entry in quite sometime. I will however be gracing you with some life updates. I hope I can remember everything.
I have started translating for the Magistrate court, I started back in the middle of May. I make really good money and if I could somehow land this a few times a week I will be more than happy. I'd rather be poor and do what I love than rich and miserable. Interpreting does pay well, it's just for now a side job. I am there as needed. I will also start translating, soon I hope, for Berkeley County in addition to possibly starting for the police departments. I am glad I can use my ability to speak Spanish to help out in stressful situations. Thanks God, for opening doors for me when I had no idea there were any to open, atleast in this point in my life.
That brings me to another point in life. I have a lot change that is due. I know that I've changed a lot in the last 8 months. My biggest decision I had to make was to be 'single'. Have I fought with myself the whole way? Yes. I have. Every day. I really feel like I am better as a whole. I am probably about 85% there. I think the only biggest struggle I have left is landing a better paying job and getting a place to live that I can call my own. My mom has listed the house for sale so I am now forced to deal with the reality that my childhood home is going to be someone else's home one day in the future. I have faith though that it will work out like it's supposed to. I have essentially packed up all of the remnants I had of Gabe and put them in a box. It was time. I had done that but I guess I had just a few things left setting out that I never got around to putting away. All I can or want to say is that I loved him and I want him to be happy. I realized that it may not be me that can bring that to him, but I shouldn't hinder him from what he calls his happiness. I heard once that letting someone go is a true form of love. I am not a fortune-teller and if I was I still wouldn't want to know how thing in life panned out. I want to be as surprised as the day I met him. Well I want that feeling anyway, if that makes any sense. What ever God has in store for me, I would like to be surprised. Its difficult to trust that God has His plan, I'm no control freak by any means but there are some things in life that I find very difficult to not have control over. Anyway in all of that ramble. I have essentially allowed myself to just breath and enjoy life for whatever it throws at me.
I am rereading harry potter seven in preperation for the movie that comes out in november, eek! Eclipse comes out next week... I'm not scrambling to get tickets for the midnight showing. I already read the book so you can't surprise me there and I dont have the money to spend on movie tickets. I want to see Dispicable Me and Toy Story 3.
As for my birthday, this year, I will be going to Press Room for dinner and drinks with some of my closer friends... I have to be semi-selective mostly because that place isn't that big. There is always the after party at one of fine shepherdstown venues. I am still considering going to Virginia Beach, again, this year the weekend of my birthday, all depends on my dog Oreo and if she's still around, poor thing is about to kick the bucket, and how much it might cost to board her. I need a mni-vacay in July. I am taking vacation in August but between work and dog this summer since Mom is doing her annual summer retreat to California and Mexico.
I went to Panama City Beach, Florida with Rachael, Elise, and Courtney. We stayed at Jessi's place. I had a blast, 4 days, 9 hours of sleep and 250 dollars later, I was ready to come home. The trip was just epic, no word to really describe it other than that.
Tomorrow is back to work. After hearing Fr. Brian's Homily today, his last, I felt that it was only appropriate that I attend daily Mass and have Confession. I'm totally way over due for Confession. Father will always be my first favorite priest no matter what. I'm just sad he doesnt get to Marry me when the day comes, maybe he can attend though. I always thought he'd be around for it. Ah well, God's plan and will right?
I end with this quote:
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. -Mark Twain"
I know I haven't written a proper entry in quite sometime. I will however be gracing you with some life updates. I hope I can remember everything.
I have started translating for the Magistrate court, I started back in the middle of May. I make really good money and if I could somehow land this a few times a week I will be more than happy. I'd rather be poor and do what I love than rich and miserable. Interpreting does pay well, it's just for now a side job. I am there as needed. I will also start translating, soon I hope, for Berkeley County in addition to possibly starting for the police departments. I am glad I can use my ability to speak Spanish to help out in stressful situations. Thanks God, for opening doors for me when I had no idea there were any to open, atleast in this point in my life.
That brings me to another point in life. I have a lot change that is due. I know that I've changed a lot in the last 8 months. My biggest decision I had to make was to be 'single'. Have I fought with myself the whole way? Yes. I have. Every day. I really feel like I am better as a whole. I am probably about 85% there. I think the only biggest struggle I have left is landing a better paying job and getting a place to live that I can call my own. My mom has listed the house for sale so I am now forced to deal with the reality that my childhood home is going to be someone else's home one day in the future. I have faith though that it will work out like it's supposed to. I have essentially packed up all of the remnants I had of Gabe and put them in a box. It was time. I had done that but I guess I had just a few things left setting out that I never got around to putting away. All I can or want to say is that I loved him and I want him to be happy. I realized that it may not be me that can bring that to him, but I shouldn't hinder him from what he calls his happiness. I heard once that letting someone go is a true form of love. I am not a fortune-teller and if I was I still wouldn't want to know how thing in life panned out. I want to be as surprised as the day I met him. Well I want that feeling anyway, if that makes any sense. What ever God has in store for me, I would like to be surprised. Its difficult to trust that God has His plan, I'm no control freak by any means but there are some things in life that I find very difficult to not have control over. Anyway in all of that ramble. I have essentially allowed myself to just breath and enjoy life for whatever it throws at me.
I am rereading harry potter seven in preperation for the movie that comes out in november, eek! Eclipse comes out next week... I'm not scrambling to get tickets for the midnight showing. I already read the book so you can't surprise me there and I dont have the money to spend on movie tickets. I want to see Dispicable Me and Toy Story 3.
As for my birthday, this year, I will be going to Press Room for dinner and drinks with some of my closer friends... I have to be semi-selective mostly because that place isn't that big. There is always the after party at one of fine shepherdstown venues. I am still considering going to Virginia Beach, again, this year the weekend of my birthday, all depends on my dog Oreo and if she's still around, poor thing is about to kick the bucket, and how much it might cost to board her. I need a mni-vacay in July. I am taking vacation in August but between work and dog this summer since Mom is doing her annual summer retreat to California and Mexico.
I went to Panama City Beach, Florida with Rachael, Elise, and Courtney. We stayed at Jessi's place. I had a blast, 4 days, 9 hours of sleep and 250 dollars later, I was ready to come home. The trip was just epic, no word to really describe it other than that.
Tomorrow is back to work. After hearing Fr. Brian's Homily today, his last, I felt that it was only appropriate that I attend daily Mass and have Confession. I'm totally way over due for Confession. Father will always be my first favorite priest no matter what. I'm just sad he doesnt get to Marry me when the day comes, maybe he can attend though. I always thought he'd be around for it. Ah well, God's plan and will right?
I end with this quote:
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. -Mark Twain"
6.07.2010
6.02.2010
Ooohhh... yeah.
What's there to say? I'm feeling better, not sick, atleast not so sick that I can't get out of bed... I slept for like 24 hours... woke up to eat and then back to bed. I feel great today, probably thanks to the antibiotics and sleep.
I'm in a funk, kinda glad I'll be getting away tomorrow. I need this girls weekend.
Mom's selling the house... I need a better job now, well sooner rather than later... I want to live on my own, and I need a better paying job to do that.
Translating is still a success... hoping something full-time comes from this, if anything I atleast have experience.
"...just hold on...I'll help you find a way..."
I'm in a funk, kinda glad I'll be getting away tomorrow. I need this girls weekend.
Mom's selling the house... I need a better job now, well sooner rather than later... I want to live on my own, and I need a better paying job to do that.
Translating is still a success... hoping something full-time comes from this, if anything I atleast have experience.
"...just hold on...I'll help you find a way..."
6.01.2010
Oh Boy.
This weekend was pretty much awesome. Life is good. I am sick but I dont know with what. I think any effort to go to work today has been voided out because I got a small headache sitting in panera and there weren't alot of people in here. Better luck tomorrow I guess.
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