1.30.2009
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1.27.2009
1.24.2009
1.23.2009
1.22.2009
1.21.2009
1.20.2009
Welcome Mr. President
While I was not there in person, I was glued to the tv all morning like the rest of the world. I know this picture doesnt really portray the amount of people that showed up to see this historical event but nonetheless this will still be a picture I will always remember.
1.19.2009
1.18.2009
1.17.2009
1.16.2009
1.15.2009
1.14.2009
1.13.2009
Celebrate Good Times
We look like alcoholics but it's not true, lol... I didnt even drink. just looks like alot.
1.12.2009
1.10.2009
Rainy Day
the three movie marathon I had this afternoon. House Bunny, Prince Caspian, and Prince & Me: Royal Honeymoon.
1.09.2009
Somewhere Over The Rainbow
The sunset looked prettier in person, I guess that's what I get for using my camera while driving, lol. And, this is Brody... he's tripled his size since I last saw him... he doesnt kiss on the first 'date'... silly dog. :)
1.08.2009
Run Around Sue
That song kinda sticks out in my mind, I mean I know it's like an oldies, but it's like... true... atleast lately in my life. The only thing different is that you gotta switch the girl for a guy, lol. But I guess that's life. Right?
1.07.2009
1.06.2009
Day of Nothing
it was one of those days...oreo and I stayed on the couch and watched tv under blankets.
1.05.2009
Goodbye
On our way back from dropping Chris off at the airport to go back to South Korea. The toll roads are getting stupid expensive too...
1.04.2009
First Weekend of the Year
Friday night was Kristi and Matt's rehearsal dinner. Everything was great, food was good and I had a really good time. Afterwards I met up with Joanna and Christina for Three Muskateers Reunion at Three Onions! I hadn't seen Christina in 4 years!!!
Saturday was of course the wedding. There was not a cloud in the sky, beautiful weather. I had a blast dancing, I can't wait to see the pictures from the photographer. Chris gave his best man speech which I think went really well, everyone enjoyed it.
1.03.2009
Project 365
http://www.photojojo.com/content/tutorials/project-365-take-a-photo-a-day/
Taking a photo a day is a big undertaking with big payoffs. Here are just a few reasons why you should consider doing it:
- Imagine being able to look back at any day of your year and recall what you did, who you met, what you learned… (Often we find it hard to remember what we did just yesterday or even last night, let alone a whole year ago!)
- Your year-long photo album will be an amazing way to document your travels and accomplishments, your haircuts and relationships. Time moves surprisingly fast.
- Taking a photo a day will make you a better photographer. Using your camera every day will help you learn its limits. You will get better at composing your shots, you’ll start to care about lighting, and you’ll become more creative with your photography when you’re forced to come up with something new every single day.
1.01.2009
Five Long Months
August:
I took off a week and went to the beach with Chris in the beginning of the month. It was a lot fun, and relaxing. The few weeks leading up to the beach had been pretty chaotic and stressful. I had been more and more uptight and just snapping at everything. Regardless of who did what, I took all my frustrations out on Chris. He didnt deserve it. He never deserved it. He tried to make me feel better but I was far away from reality, and so consumed, that I didnt listen when he said he was sorry or when he wanted to do something nice but I never let him. Nothing was right, and nothing he or anyone else said at the point really would have made a dent in my nuerotic anger. The month progressed and I started school. I was starting to feel my stress get more crazy intense if that was possible. I was at my wits end with my job at the Bank, 18 credit hours, and trying to balance my life. I couldn't do it, not then anyway. Then, about a week in, Chris started hanging out with Jessika again which I did not like at all. I did not trust her for even a split second. He argued that I didnt trust him, which wasn't totally true, I didnt trust her at all. She's lied too much for me and she just wasn't good, but Chris told me to deal with it, so I did. I sucked it up and I was nice to her because he wanted me to be. Life still only seemed to get harder and more stressful for me.
September:
Chris and I broke up Labor Day weekend. I didnt want to break up with him. But, I had hit a point where I knew I pushed him one too many times with losing my temper. It was supposed to be a break, we were supposed to get back together. But, then we had a miscommunication, no surprise there, and he decided that he didn't want to get back together with me again...ever. Well, I took that really hard. It was my breaking point. I had turned in my two weeks notice and I was reducing my work load and I was dropping a class but none of this mattered because I wouldn't get back together with Chris. I hit my breaking point. And, it sucked. He and I went from being together to not even speaking, even as friends. I didnt know what I was going to do. I couldn't be his friend anymore because it was like I had to watch some other chick, probably jessika, be happy with and at that point I couldnt do it. I was also so stressed that I threw up for three weeks straight everything that I ate. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't think. I was a classic wreck. I felt like I had part of me ripped from my chest and I wasn't whole anymore. My thought pattern was limited to hopeless and sad. I was depressed again, but so much deeper than I had been earlier this year. I didnt want to be like that, I didnt want Chris to be gone. Everything was all wrong. So I decided that I would go about two weeks without talking to him and that after that I could have an idea of whether I should talk to him or what I was going to do with him, how I was going to keep him in my life.
I decided to pledge a sorority of all things and I found that I was surrounded by a lot positive energy. It helped. I slowed down alot. I went to the bookstore with another one of my guy friends and I ended up picking up a book I had recommended to me. It was on Adult Children of Alcoholics. I read that book and felt like my life readjusted itself to right side up and I was going to be ok afterall. The book seemed like it was written for me and I just felt like I could breathe easier. I finished the book in about two days. Which then, I texted Chris telling him I wanted him in my life, and it was going to take time but I was going to be ok. Well then he came over to watch Grey's like usual and we fell into a good pattern, slowly we started talking and being more comfortable around each other. I had rearranged my goals and priorities and I was happier now that I had a plan and I could invision myself doing things after graduation which is in May.
October:
October was an interestingly quiet month. I was busy with many things, I got my internship with the Shepherdstown Chronicle so I was one step closer to Graduation. Chris and I started hanging out alot more and everything seemed to be going really smoothly. It had been a few weeks since the night that I last yelled at him and I hadn't lost my temper since. I was pretty proud of myself. I still had a lot of progress to make. I was continuing with my sorority events. I also made some time for myself since I wasn't working anymore, I got to relax a lot. Winks Cup was at the end of the month, it came and went. It was a really good time.
November:
Chris had decided that he was going to take a job teaching English in South Korea. I was left wrestling with some unexpected abandoment issues. By this point, he and I had hung out often and just did whatever. I was still busy with school but it was winding down. I spent Thanksgiving with him and his family. It was a really nice, I had a good time. I had started picking up a few hours here and there at Bath and Body for the holidays. I babysat a few times and then I mostly relaxed the rest of the time. I was initiated now in Delta Zeta so that was over and done with as far as pledge time went.
December:
It came time for Chris to leave and I was over him being gone, it wasn't going to change anything if I was sad so I moved on and dried up.
I took off a week and went to the beach with Chris in the beginning of the month. It was a lot fun, and relaxing. The few weeks leading up to the beach had been pretty chaotic and stressful. I had been more and more uptight and just snapping at everything. Regardless of who did what, I took all my frustrations out on Chris. He didnt deserve it. He never deserved it. He tried to make me feel better but I was far away from reality, and so consumed, that I didnt listen when he said he was sorry or when he wanted to do something nice but I never let him. Nothing was right, and nothing he or anyone else said at the point really would have made a dent in my nuerotic anger. The month progressed and I started school. I was starting to feel my stress get more crazy intense if that was possible. I was at my wits end with my job at the Bank, 18 credit hours, and trying to balance my life. I couldn't do it, not then anyway. Then, about a week in, Chris started hanging out with Jessika again which I did not like at all. I did not trust her for even a split second. He argued that I didnt trust him, which wasn't totally true, I didnt trust her at all. She's lied too much for me and she just wasn't good, but Chris told me to deal with it, so I did. I sucked it up and I was nice to her because he wanted me to be. Life still only seemed to get harder and more stressful for me.
September:
Chris and I broke up Labor Day weekend. I didnt want to break up with him. But, I had hit a point where I knew I pushed him one too many times with losing my temper. It was supposed to be a break, we were supposed to get back together. But, then we had a miscommunication, no surprise there, and he decided that he didn't want to get back together with me again...ever. Well, I took that really hard. It was my breaking point. I had turned in my two weeks notice and I was reducing my work load and I was dropping a class but none of this mattered because I wouldn't get back together with Chris. I hit my breaking point. And, it sucked. He and I went from being together to not even speaking, even as friends. I didnt know what I was going to do. I couldn't be his friend anymore because it was like I had to watch some other chick, probably jessika, be happy with and at that point I couldnt do it. I was also so stressed that I threw up for three weeks straight everything that I ate. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't think. I was a classic wreck. I felt like I had part of me ripped from my chest and I wasn't whole anymore. My thought pattern was limited to hopeless and sad. I was depressed again, but so much deeper than I had been earlier this year. I didnt want to be like that, I didnt want Chris to be gone. Everything was all wrong. So I decided that I would go about two weeks without talking to him and that after that I could have an idea of whether I should talk to him or what I was going to do with him, how I was going to keep him in my life.
I decided to pledge a sorority of all things and I found that I was surrounded by a lot positive energy. It helped. I slowed down alot. I went to the bookstore with another one of my guy friends and I ended up picking up a book I had recommended to me. It was on Adult Children of Alcoholics. I read that book and felt like my life readjusted itself to right side up and I was going to be ok afterall. The book seemed like it was written for me and I just felt like I could breathe easier. I finished the book in about two days. Which then, I texted Chris telling him I wanted him in my life, and it was going to take time but I was going to be ok. Well then he came over to watch Grey's like usual and we fell into a good pattern, slowly we started talking and being more comfortable around each other. I had rearranged my goals and priorities and I was happier now that I had a plan and I could invision myself doing things after graduation which is in May.
October:
October was an interestingly quiet month. I was busy with many things, I got my internship with the Shepherdstown Chronicle so I was one step closer to Graduation. Chris and I started hanging out alot more and everything seemed to be going really smoothly. It had been a few weeks since the night that I last yelled at him and I hadn't lost my temper since. I was pretty proud of myself. I still had a lot of progress to make. I was continuing with my sorority events. I also made some time for myself since I wasn't working anymore, I got to relax a lot. Winks Cup was at the end of the month, it came and went. It was a really good time.
November:
Chris had decided that he was going to take a job teaching English in South Korea. I was left wrestling with some unexpected abandoment issues. By this point, he and I had hung out often and just did whatever. I was still busy with school but it was winding down. I spent Thanksgiving with him and his family. It was a really nice, I had a good time. I had started picking up a few hours here and there at Bath and Body for the holidays. I babysat a few times and then I mostly relaxed the rest of the time. I was initiated now in Delta Zeta so that was over and done with as far as pledge time went.
December:
It came time for Chris to leave and I was over him being gone, it wasn't going to change anything if I was sad so I moved on and dried up.
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