Just A Dream.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.
Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Will she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.


when all else fails, music steps in.

New Beginning

Today was the day I put my mom on a plane back to California. Totally overwhelming but I'm okay.

I will be okay.

Overload.

lots and lots of things happening this week... and in the end all I wish was that I could talk to you. Yep. I'm just silly.

At My Wits End.

All I know is that emotionally I cannot handle another blow.

I want to ask why, how, when, what, and where.

I just want answers.


I just want to have peace in my mind. And, to be able to fall asleep before 1am.

Redamdonkulous.

Bahahaha, well tonight was just interesting. I intended on getting a beer after I finished at the gym, and it ended up being a lot more entertaining. I'll leave it at that.

found the new breaking benjamin music on myspace... kickass, yes.

I just want to say, I hate that you got to me so deeply. Bah, I have recovered and purged but there are parts of me I fear will never let you go. blah blah blah.

next on my to do list, when I get a better paying job, get my car detailed, windows tinted, and new rims. I've always wanted to have a decent(looking) car but I never had the money for it. Food just seemed much more important... so I've enlisted the help of one of my friends and so here in the near future, I'll have a nice zoom zoom mazda again.

insomnia... is relentless. I give.

Change is Good.

Hello Blog,

We meet again. Under better terms of course. I am doing very well. Life is going pretty great. I am looking for jobs left and right and even under rocks...or so it feels. My mom is peacing out for Cali here soon and I'm excited and nervous all the same. I'll miss seeing her often but I will be able to talk to her probably everyday.

Fixing, adjusting, deleting, all the things that were holding me back. I've come to terms with many things in life and I've decided that I really have no control at this point so I've just given it up to God. He's in charge anyway. So, I let it all go. I feel better, less worrying and stressing.

Went to the gym, thought that would tire me out, guess not, bah, oh well, hopefully I'll get some shut eye tonight, atleast I dont have to be in to work until 10. I am waiting to hear back about an interview... with APUS again. I had one two weeks ago, actually two of them for the same job but they hired other people. I'll keep harrassing them with my resume until I get a job! determination right? that's an attractive attribute. Decorating, going to the gym, and focusing on fixing all the things I need fix have been great. I am not distracting myself with things, I am tackling all the necessary bs life hands you. One of the first things to go when I get a good job...Sprint! That iphone looks better and better. It's not even that I have a bad phone, it's the actual company! Anyway, there are more important things like paying all the small bills I have still and getting that stupid credit card paid OFF. Ugh, I was definitely in college once, irresponsibility!

After seeing Eat Pray Love Sunday, my love of travel has been rejuvenated. I want to go Italy and stay with nuns and travel the country and possibly go to other countries. I want to visit some eastern European countries too. Any country for that matter is fair game. Ireland? I'd love to. Germany, again, of course! France... ahh, the food... I can taste it! So many places, I'd probably just open a map and pick a spot and get on the train. Oh, I'm excited. :)

And to end it, I'm just happy. I am. I know that if I just keep doing what I'm doing, I will very happy with the end result.