Yeah, so... I finally got around to writing a thank you note to Laura for cleaning out my car. I'm really slow at the right things in life sometimes I've decided. She talked me into going to Single and Learning to Love it at church tonight. I'm semi-thrilled actually... I just was looking for a sign to do it I guess. I gave Laura one of my yankee candle car fresheners, I think coconut bay? Anyway, give and ye shall recieve right?
I got a note from Nancy today, telling me that basically I disappointed Grace by being five minutes late to the movies but that she missed me. Funny thing is before I opened the card I thought it was a holy spirit thing filled but it turned out to be a sorry card, in so many words.
I've realized I need to give up being so hard on the people who love me, if it's something I've decided or come to know, it's that love doesnt go away. If it does, then that means it wasn't true to begin with. I know that's touching something on different levels. I didnt need my therapist to tell me this either. I'm starting to realize that how Gabe felt about me was real, maybe he feels for me now, but I know that he does feel for me as a friend, and I know that it's genuine. I know that Rachael is the same way... I guess I just have to learn my own way, like usual.
I started to pray a Novena last night for the first time ever in my life. It's to St. Joseph... you prayer the prayer 9 days in a row. So, hopefully after 9 days something will happen to me that will make sense? I'm a bad Catholic when it comes to this stuff, i dont know what's supposed to happen if it's supposed to happen at the end of the 9 days. So here goes..
hasta pronto.
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