Well I found out I was never really getting back together with Gabe, apparently I was just along for a joy ride. After having consumed enough last night, I called him out on it, made me feel better to call him an asshole, he admitted to not being nice and that yeah he had no feelings for me. Ugh, that hurt, alot. I can't even really begin to express my sadness. I just know that I'm absolutely incapable of being loved (by a guy). I guess he wasn't mr. right afterall, so much for this believing in love thing.
I dont know what I'd have to do but I guess at this point i'm not above not doing anything. I told him that he wasn't allowed to tell me any bad news til after the new year, I dont want to deal with it and I dont want to fall out of love again, for the second time this year.
over it. but it hurts.
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