I am going to try something new. Explaining everything, in one sitting no less.
I am not moving out.
well that was easy.
Alright, I'll give you an explanation too.
After the last week and a half and not moving in with Sammi like I had orginally planned, having to find other roommates, and then facing the fact that I already dont like my job. I figured that the odds were heavily stacked against me. Tuesday I went to talk with the landlord about my predicament, while I waited for her, I sat down and I said looking at the bright blue sky,"Dad, if you could help undo all the crap I just did to myself, that would be great... I know that I did some stupid impulse thinking but I really learned my lesson and if you could fix it, that would be even better". I got a phone call later on that was from my landloard and she told me she had a girl who was interested in splitting, she was from Shepherd and graduating as well so it would be managable... but I couldn't help but think that it just wasn't all falling together like it should be. I came down to visit some family friends, and I kept playing phone tag with the landlord...finally this morning I get a hold of her, and she gave the best news of all. She had someone to take the whole apartment, and she was letting me out of the lease AND giving me a check back for 185.00.
I want to move out. I just can't afford it, and considering I just got a small loan from my mom to pay off three credit cards, I'm really not trying to get myself right back in to debt. I love my homelife, I dont have to move out, I dont need to move out, I just wanted to because I guess I just wanted to feel like I was a full-grown adult. I guess. I dont know why I'm trying to grow up so fast. Either way, this not moving out thing has definitely lifted a huge weight off my shoulders. I wish now that I could find a job doing travel like I want to. Selling dresses and gossiping is not my career goal. I want to move to the beach. I want to visit so many places, and I want to write.
I guess I know some things about what I want but moving out isn't really one of them as much as I thought, when I look back on it. Everything happens for a reason. This just means there's something better out there for me.
Thanks Dad, I owe you!
I'm so glad you were able to get out of your lease. Don't rush anything. You are right, you are not in a job that is for you. Keep searching- staying where you are leaves you with many advantages. You can save money, you do have a job, and when you find your next one- you have the ability to go anywhere! I'm so excited for you!
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