Backstory

I feel like I'm due for some backstory writing.

I am a bottler. I internalize everything. I dont show anything to be wrong. When I do, it means that I have had my fill of shit. And, I have had my fill of shit.

Writing about it, yet I'm vague, is my way of trying to say I can't handle it, and I wish that someone would ask and that I could have someone listen. I am a stubborn one and I dont ask for help nor do I ask for a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on out right. to most of my friends, I just start crying and eventually they get part of the story, never the whole.

No one in my life knows everything that goes on inside my head. Some people think that's weird, others totally sympathize/understand because they themselves dont confide everything in one single person.

I have a few people that I tell most everything to however that list is shrinking faster than I'd like/want.

I just thought that might help.